Our blessing from Allah is now 34 weeks old and this pic is from week 33 day 6. He appears to be healthy. I love this pic because I can actually see his cute face, mashallah! I felt less connected when seeing it, though because it replaced the 'working' image I had of him in my mind- now he was a much more realistic human being. My husband keeps asking me if I am thinking about the labor and honestly I have done the research and seen the videos but I haven't really processed it yet- its hard to fully prepare for the unknown.
The pregnancy is going well- I am no longer losing weight and not gaining quickly either, which is good. I am getting headaches and am so sore when walking. I want to be more active, like walking more, but its so hot and I fear getting stuck and frustrated far from home. I had a dentist appt and it was so uncomfortable being on my back and had to take numerous breaks.
I am improving greatly emotionally, mashallah. I am coming 'out of my fog' and feeling more connected and positive- I still feel sad about this month, knowing school is starting up and I won't be preparing my lessons and classroom. But I will soon be starting my new job of mom. I have to continue to trust that Allah's plan for me will be more beneficial than I can imagine and I have to be patient.
So for now I will prepare for Suvad, get my medical and unemployment in order, and work on centering my emotions and growing closer to Allah.
