My son- Month 8/ 32 weeks [pic from 28 weeks]

So my baby is growing and kicking his way along- I love the little movements and kicks but could do without the heartburn, funky carpal tunnel, sore back, breathlessness, stretch marks that grow with every month, infamous pregnancy waddle, and fatigue. But its all for a great cause.
I am struggling with the blues and crazy emotions- I have finally realized that I've been taking it out on my husband so now I need to examine my feelings and not direct it at him- the joy of maturity and living the life. I pray for God's guidance.
I am also working on being more positive and not worry about doctor choices, hospitals, labor decisions, etc. I have to trust that God will take care of everything.

So- my baby is around 4 pounds and all seems to be well with every visit- I think he has his daddy's big nose from the ultrasound. I look forward to the next one next week that my husband can attend. I am realizing the reality of my new role of mother to my son more and more- how will I raise him to be a good Muslim man in this world? what will I do when I mess up or don't set the right example? So many things to think of but I will just have to do my best, inshallah

Re-Realizing the Purpose- Quran Reading

With my 'vacation' this summer, I've been striving to make it my goal to read all the books I never had time for and to most importantly study the Quran and read a larger portion than I normally read daily- I have been slacking.
I came across an article from http://www.quranicpath.com/quranicpath/reading_quran.html that noted the importance of relying on what the Quran states about life matters and not on what other people say. My husband and his family are of the practice that you revere the Quran and not touch it with dirty hands or keep it in a 'low' place- many Muslims have this level of respect, but how many are reading the Quran and learning it's message?  I  know some Christians will have copies of the Bible here, there, and anywhere seemingly without respect for cleanliness but I think its more important that you read the words than keep the outside clean.
I take pride and joy in being disciplined enough to read some portion of the Quran everyday but am I truly benefiting or just 'putting in my time'- much like rushing through a prayer to get it done. How much attention am I paying to the words God provided for us?

So, as I struggle with crazy emotions and an impending life change, I pray for the strength to focus and truly soak in the message God has enclosed in the Quran and not take it for granted, to do more than the 'bare minmum' I pray the same for all others as well