Second Trimester

I've finally passed the miscarriage stage and am now 13 weeks preganant- thank God!  I still kinda worry and don't 'feel pregnant' but now I have resolved myself to accepting that it will be a while before I see the baby and to just be patient and pray for good health- my biggest issue to eating properly, always hard for me : (   My nauseua is gone and soreness has decreased, even my fatigue is mostly gone- I've read the 2nd trimester is the easiest. At my 11 week appointment, I heard the heartbeat and it was very surreal- it made me happy and more connected to the baby- can't wait to find out the gender

I have moved into my first house and although my pregnancy emotions have led to a lot of fights with my husbend and me being needy, I am content. I have become stronger in my faith following a party my hubend threw for his friend during which a lot of people come into my home and were drinking [the reality of marrying a person on a different phase of faith than you] and I was very uncomfortable even away from the scene and finally snapped at him to kick them out after 5 hours. Although I was angry, I also felt very odd because I have never been to parties and a loss of control and odd about this happening around me- it made me feel more determined to live modestly and appropiately so I am working on cleaning up even more [like not passively listening to inappropiate music and watching my own potty mouth, and not isolating myself so much to the point of unkindness, as a lifelong loner and from my husbend's concern] That experience showed me that the drinking culture I often wondered about in the past was definately not for me and my life as a Muslim was precious.

So, with better communication with my husbend, a new puppy [3 months old], and prayfully still keeping my job [budget cuts : (  ]  I am hopeful for the future with my growing baby.